greeting a new year & a new season. If I'm being completely honest, I'm not in a celebratory mood today - this New Years Eve feels heavy... and dark. What the hell, this whole year has been heavy, and dark… and maddening at times. It's pure chaos out there!!!!! I...
finding me.
Time and time again, I keep getting lost. Lost in the world, in the drama of everything... lost in my own head? My energy has been feeling heavy lately and the day-to-day has been a bit overwhelming. I'm hanging in there, finding my way back home - home being the...
turning 25.
a quarter of a century, oh, & what a time it's been… Here I am on my 25th trip around the sun, reflecting on my journey thus far - letting this moment sink in. I've been flowing through a myriad of emotions the past few weeks but today I want to focus on...
real talk.
Let’s be honest, I’m over it. When it comes down to it, I’m tired… more like exhausted. This year has been a LOT… nearly too much honestly. I think many of us are hitting breaking points, but I want to be real for a few minutes... & this post might be a bit messy,...
expectations.
post-grad life, unemployment & uncertain times. two years On this day, two years ago, I graduated college. I barely made it to my graduation ceremony (due to ending up in the ER over an unexplained kidney issue) but, I made it. I received my diploma, took photos...
from the wind.
Owl: Am I correct in assuming it is a rather blustery day outside?Piglet: Yes sir Owl, it is a very very blustery day outside.from The Many Adventures of Winnie the Pooh ….. Over the past two weeks, I have been attending a virtual healing circle. This afternoon we...
gratitude in uncertainty.
"Oh, morning sun, heal my pain." This morning, I woke up to a new moon: a new day, a clean slate & a new beginning. We, as a collective humanity, have been faced with trying times in the midst of this global pandemic. One might ask, where do we find peace? How...
trust, patience & strength
Hello again my friend 🙂 It's great to be back... After writing about the passing of my grandfather last month, I have been struggling as to what to write about and how to express certain things I'm dealing with. I've been going through a period of instability as well...
a grieving heart.
No one ever told me that grief felt so like fear. I am not afraid, but the sensation is like being afraid. The same fluttering in the stomach, the same restlessness, the yawning. I keep on swallowing. At other times it feels like being mildly drunk, or concussed....